As is becoming our weekly practice, this post is modified from this weeks podcast episode 82: Find the Beginning in the Ending. If you want to listen instead, have at it! Meanwhile, this post includes a few affiliate links where books are mentioned. Glad you’re here!
After two years, I’ve finally earned my Masters in Christian Spiritual Formation and Leadership. Well, almost. Because what my fellow students and I all lamented as we stood in our caps and gowns together before the ceremony as though we were being hooded that day, our assignments weren’t completely over.
We still have two papers due before the end of the month. Talk about pomp and circumstance. More like womp and circumstance.
(Sorry, I couldn’t help myself.)
After the ceremony, some of us went out for burgers and ice cream (as the Lord intended) and then I made my way back to my room to figure out how to pack a mortarboard cap into my suitcase. The next day, John and I flew back to life and to business as usual.
But, I carried a little secret with me and I’m almost embarrassed to admit it to you and that is after two years of assignments, tons of reading, endless papers, and four-week-long residencies, I should be relieved that it’s almost over and frustrated about those two final papers hanging over my head but the truth I’m going to tell you right now is I’m secretly glad I still have these papers left to write.
I know it’s so weird and I quite possibly might have a strange addiction to learning, but once those papers are turned in, then this experience really is over. And while that is the point, it’s also a little sad.
Maybe you’re facing down an ending today and that ending has a few loose ends left to tie up. Are you a little hesitant to move forward too? Are you dragging your feet to the finish line, concerned about what might come after? Or maybe you’ve already ended a thing but it went by without acknowledgment and now, you find yourself a little bit stuck with what to do next.
Today I’ll offer 3 simple things to consider as you discern your next right thing.
1. Put a period on the experience.
Marking the ending of things is embedded into our culture. The parties, finales, celebrations, and farewells are all part of our regular rhythm of life. Even our birthdays technically celebrate an ending. When a baby turns 1, we mark the end of her first year, not the beginning of it.
When an ending is communal, involving families or groups, the likelihood of us marking it might be greater simply because more people are involved. But just because the group marks a thing doesn’t mean you owned that ending for yourself. Not to mention, that if an ending is more personal or quiet, it might be even easier to overlook.
It’s important to not rush through the ending, but we still have to have one. One way to do that is to find a period to end things as best we can.
On the last day of school last week, one of our teachers James Bryan Smith gave a short lecture about the ending of our time together. I really appreciated his intentionality to say This is over and it cannot be duplicated. That’s helpful for those who may tend to expect things to carry on as they have been when in fact, circumstances have changed and so must our expectations.
We’ve all been to events done well and events done not so well. For example, at a wedding we love it when the pastor pronounces the couple husband and wife, the bride is kissed, the couple is announced as Mr. and Mrs. for the very first time, the crowd cheers, and the music starts right on time while the bride and groom rush down the aisle together.
What we don’t love at weddings is when the pastor pronounces the couple husband and wife, the bride is kissed, the couple is announced for the very first time, the crowd cheers and then the music doesn’t start right away. The couple doesn’t want to walk awkwardly down the aisle in silence, so they look around and wait, and then everyone is quiet and then when the music does finally start it’s too quiet but they go down anyway. It’s a whole thing and it’s the worst.
In a small way and for the sake of this illustration, the music is the period the ceremony needs. When every part falls into place, when the crescendo comes at the right moment and the rhythm fits the expectation and everyone plays their part, there’s a sense of completion, of joy, and a settled satisfaction.
Maybe one reason you’ve not been able to move forward into your next right thing is because there’s an ending lingering in your life that never ended with a period. Maybe it’s even been years. So instead, you just kept on going without acknowledging the thing was even over at all.
Maybe it ended abruptly and there was no time to recognize it, much less grieve it.
Perhaps it ended badly and it was too painful to look at so instead you chose not to.
Or maybe it’s simply that life got busy. Yes, you met that goal, reached that finish line, or achieved that accomplishment, but there was dinner to make and errands to run and you never had a chance to mark the moment.
All of these things could be reasons why we are having trouble of moving on to the next right thing. We’ve been unwilling, unable, or maybe simply unaware that we needed to put a period on an ending.
2. Don’t let the stuff outweigh the sacred.
In high school, my best friend Heather and I started to hang out with two guys who were also best friends. When she and one of the guys started to date, it only “made sense” the other guy and I hung out a lot more and started to date as well.
(It was high school so you know, the things that make sense in high school might not make sense when we are grownups, but have mercy.)
Eventually, we all went to prom together and for a few months we had the best time laughing, going to soccer and baseball games, and hanging out at each other’s houses.
For a while the four of us were inseparable. But our days were numbered together and we knew it because that summer, one of the guys had to move away. I held on to notes, photo albums, journal entries, and other memorabilia from that fun spring and that was my way of trying to hang on to the experience. But those things were not the experience, they were the evidence that the experience was real.
In other words, they were the stuff.
But, I was young and my brain wasn’t fully developed so I focused only on the loss and the memories lived mainly in the stuff that I couldn’t bear to get rid of.
There’s nothing wrong with keeping the stuff, but I didn’t yet understand the importance of letting the stuff lead me to the sacred — specifically how my experience with my friends changed me, how it formed me, and what I was grateful for as a result. So I kept the stuff but because it was sad to go through it, I put it all in a box in the top of my closet which resulted in memory clutter and deferred grief.
For much of my life, I’ve allowed the stuff to swallow up the sacred.
Who can teach us how to let the stuff lead us to what really matters? Sometimes I wish it was my job to design a few classes that every student has to pass before graduating high school — how to do online banking, how to structure your day as a working adult, how to say a healthy goodbye. There’s so much we have to learn on our own, isn’t there?
3. Hints of your next right thing can be found in your last right thing.
I have always found this to be true. Every book I’ve written has seeds of the next book embedded within it. If you look closely and have nothing better to do with your time, you can find all of those hints because endings always also carry the first string of new beginnings.
We celebrate the first year of a baby but it heralds in her second year, too. We celebrate the wedding that ends the engagement but begins a lifetime together. We celebrate a graduation that ends the time of structured study but begins a time of continued learning in the world.
The sacred things we mark from the ending will be brought forth into our beginnings, not necessarily because of an external thing we bring with us, but because of the person we have become.
When things end, we come forth changed.
We would do well to take some time to pay attention to those changes, to mark them, to honor them and see how they might lead us forward.
When I’m facing, or in the midst of, or just beyond an ending,
Have I become more confident?
Has my heart expanded as a result of my experience?
Do I see gifts in small things?
What corner of the kingdom do I feel drawn to most?
When I look at people, do I see the image of God more quickly now?
In some ways for me and my own ending, school is safer than not school. School means someone else tells me what to focus on, where to spend my time, and what is important to remember. And while I’ve been a grown up for quite a long time by now and I know how to do things, I admit it’s been nice for these last few years to trust someone else to design my learning curriculum. Because not school means now I have questions to answer, pathways to choose, and more decisions to make.
It always comes back to that, doesn’t it? Decisions, choices, this path or that one, which way to go?
God is always forming us. And so often he uses the decision making process to do it.
Can you think of something in your life that ended without fanfare or acknowledgment? Maybe it’s time to name it.
Is there a small thing you can put a period on an ending in a life-giving, appropriate way?
Maybe its time to say a formal goodbye, have a small (or big!) celebration, or even simply to light a candle to mark a memory.
What about all your stuff?
Have you put the stuff of your experience into a box to go through later?
Might it be time to pull the box out and allow the stuff to lead you to the sacred gifts the experience has to bring your way — the transformation that happened in your mind, your body, and your heart as a result of that time in your life?
If you’re not ready, that’s okay too. Our friend Jesus can help you to know when the time is right. You can trust him with that.
Maybe you’ve marked the ending, you’ve allowed the stuff to lead you to the sacred work, but you’re still wondering what your next right thing might be.
Take a little time to be silent and to be still. To be watchful. To bear witness.
If you can’t yet see a new spark, a small shoot, or the start of a new thing, take heart. Ask Jesus what you are to look for. Remain open to seeing things in a way you might not expect.
If nothing comes, be gentle with yourself. We don’t stop living just because we are unsure. We continue on, trusting in the King of the Kingdom as we simply do our next right thing in love.
“Everyone has lost sight of your heart And you can see nowhere to put your trust; you know you have to make your own way through. As far as you can, hold your confidence.
Do not allow your confusion to squander this call which is loosening your roots in false ground, that you might come free from all you have outgrown.
What is being transfigured here is your mind, and it is difficult and slow to become new.
The more faithfully you can endure here, the more refined your heart will become for your arrival in the new dawn.”
John O’Donohue, To Bless the Space Between Us
If you want even more help to discern your next steps, grab a copy of my new book The Next Right Thing.
I’m with you Emily! I felt & continue to feel, “Lost in Transition.”. Not fearful, just adjusting to “no assignments due.”.
There are assignments, just waiting for directions!!
Great being with you & the gang last week!
Shalom as we process, “The Next Right Thing.”
Ann Weaver
This podcast listen came by divine appointment from Jesus. I am struggling to put a period to sell my family home. This gives me steps, something I knew I needed more of. It is an emotional thing to be sure. This gives me hope and also the space to put the period with what I am learning and being able to move. I have been stuck for almost 3 years here. I think being stuck here has caused me to be stuck in other areas as well. If you happen to go to my website….there is the place I am stuck, with an unfinished website. Awareness is key. Thank you Jesus.
💕💕💕 I see another book. 💕💕💕
Emily- I just need to say love your pod cast, blog, and book (of which I bought two!) I will give one away. I stumbled upon you because I googled “Next right thing” after a study on David in the Bible… this year we studied People of the Promised Land and I didn’t “get” David (or Solomon) long story short, learned no human being belongs on a pedestal…that being said; but David was a man after God’s own heart. I feel like I am too. We all sin and fall short (David and I are no exception) but in the Bible it is written how David repented (Psalms are proof) and David moved on to do “The next right thing” I loved the concept and truth of it… so this was my journey to YOU. I feel God led me! I sure do feel the blessing as I walk and listen to your pod cast. It’s as though God is speaking directly to me (through you) and I just had to share. Love you and love the LORD with all my heart. Thank you so very much. Your Sister in Jesus Christ. Lori
I love this and it is so timely for me with a special season ending and moving on to something also special but unknown. Thank you! I love your way of writing and expression. This was just for me! 🙂
I was recently mourning the ending of a season of my life (my oldest began college last fall and the other two will soon follow leaving me w/o my primary occupation of full time mom for the first time my adult life). I began to think of it as a book, a great book. The season of my life when I have been full time mom is coming to an end, it has been a fantastic book with amazing character development, a plot full of twists and surprises and lots of laughter and tears. When I finish reading an amazing book, sometimes I hesitate to begin another one right away because I’m still processing the previous one, but, eventually I begin another book. It may take me a few tries to find the next amazing story but there is always another one out there. So, I am in the last chapters of this book and I can take some time to process it but there is another great book out there, just waiting for me to find it. Even as I feel all the emotions about the end of this book, I am beginning to feel anticipation for that next book.
Your new book, podcast, and this post have been keeping me afloat the past few weeks, as I ponder why I am saying goodbye to things I love to make space for the unknown. I’ve found myself trying to create a next thing in my life, with no progress, only to come back to your words (and our Lord’s) and find that He is the One that knows the next right thing, and He will lead me into it in His time. Yesterday, I found out my mom has cancer. We don’t know what kind yet, because it has metasticized into her lungs from somewhere else (which showed up on an x-ray, taken for a different reason), but it doesn’t look good. Now, I am beginning to see that my oddly open schedule for the summer may have been Gpd-ordained for me to make room for this new leg of the journey with my mom. I am thankful for your words here, which help me to remember to take note of the sacred during this time, and to find ways to mark and celebrate her life as we walk through this time of uncertainty.
Congratulations on your graduation! You have already begun the good work your studies have prepared you for, and I look forward to seeing how the Lord will continue to use you for His kingdom work.
Thank you. This is so timely.
Emily, I asked my therapist this very question two weeks ago: how do you say goodbye. Our denomination transfers it’s pastors. My husband and I have been leaving for 25 years (more when you consider our parents were also pastors in this church). Our denomination tells us how to leave with specific instructions, but they don’t tell us how to say goodbye. Thank you for making the distinction and give 3 very important steps to consider and process. The timing for this, for me, is surely God.
Congratulations Emily, you did it! Coming across your podcasts from Bonnie’s blog is so life giving for me. Last year I crossed a major crossroad and your podcasts are seeing me through this strange, trying season. When it’s hard to get anyone to understand or support my journey, I find great soul mate in your podcasts, writings. Deeply grateful for your powerful, biblical sharing from the heart, really help me stop doubting myself and learn to make sense of my journey. A year later now (from that crossroad), I am trying to discern my next right step, you have again packed so much good points in this latest article. Thank you very much !
Having just recently finished grad school (without any fanfare, because I finished before graduation came around), I’ve been struggling with this exact thing. Not having an actual ending, and not knowing how to really move forward. In fact, my therapist and I were just talking about this on Tuesday. She said that she often has to council recently graduate (and doctoral) students on how to become normal people again when they are finished their studies. It helped me feel more normal and less weird. Because I knew this was going to be a big year of transition, I just didn’t know I would have such a hard time with it. Your podcast and these posts when I haven’t had time to listen, have been such a HUGE blessing as I have tried to navigate this new time in my life. Thank you XOXO and congratulations.
I’m so glad to know that, Beth.
Like many comments written before mine, I, too, am transitioning to a new season. I am going from working a full time job to staying at home with our sweet 12 week old baby. I have worked for the last 15 years, not having this opportunity with our other two children. But the Lord has graciously opened this door and I am choosing to walk through it. I feel lost and not sure what’s coming around the bend, but am trusting God for the next right thing. Everything you write is spot on and washes over my soul like the soft sound of rain hitting a tin roof – calming me down from my current anxiety-filled state. I have been telling everyone I know about your book (page 111 spoke volumes!) and podcast and how you seem to know just what to say, when to say it, and how to exactly deliver what the Lord lays on your heart. Thank you so much for hearing Him and giving this sister hope while sadly ending one chapter, yet beginning a new, exciting time to be a present momma to our 3 littles. Emily, you are a blessing! 🙂
Emily,
I read this knowing next May I will graduate from the MACSLF program. You were a big part of me choosing to do that. God has used it in my heart to teach and transform me in ways I would never have imagined….it was my next right thing. I have grown to love and care for my cohort and am saddened at the thought of all of that ending. I so appreciate this posting as it will begin to prepare me….I know that God has a next right thing for me after the completion of this and I cry out “Abba, Father show me your way for me.” Best to you as your journey on….
Congratulations on your completion (almost) of your course of study. I remember the comfort zone of the counseling program and the safety of having instructors there to guide during internships. Then, graduating left a moment (and only a moment) of wondering, “now what?”
Thank you for your continuing words and your encouragement to your listeners/readers.
Thank you, Emily, for allowing God to speak through you. This was a needed message, and I have been returning to it again and again over the last few days. I am in a period of great transition; leaving a private counseling practice that God and I have built over the last six years and a home and church of 15 years. I am not yet ready to delight in what is to come. My heart has expanded. God has shown up. Friends have been loved. But, what does this “see you later” mean? There is no easy box, but a culmination of experiences that may not be contained to words. But, you have given voice to what has been rolling around inside of my mind and spirit. Bless your work!