3 Ways to Know if Your Soul is Stuck in Hustle

September has come gently for me. But it hasn’t been without a fight.

Last week I started to feel the familiar internal shaking, the kind that won’t let me sit down on the inside. I used to ignore this, thinking it was just a normal part of an active life.

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But after writing a whole book about small-moment living in a fast-moving world, I recognized the inside shakes are a sign that my soul was being held under the thumb of hustle once again.

I don’t want this to be normal.

It happens to everyone, I think – it’s why my main focus here at Chatting at the Sky is to create space for your soul to breathe. I need regular reminders to take a breath, to slow, and to consider.

If you wonder if your soul is being held hostage by hustle, here are three obvious symptoms I experienced last week and maybe you can relate.

1. I’m easily distracted.

The hustle hostage usually comes on the tail end of a big project. For me, it was a book launch. I have also experienced this after back-to-back travel, a busy weekend with houseguests, or when our routine is interrupted for an extended period of time.

To counterbalance the frenzy, I will try to do something calming like read a book. But instead of sinking into the story, I read two sentences and notice my mind wandering. Or I’ll take a picture of the book and put it on Instagram instead of actually enjoying the book. Anyone?

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2. I lack inspiration.

When hustle has seeped into the level of my soul (meaning my thoughts, my emotions, and my will feel rushed) I realize it most readily when I lack inspiration. I’m particularly sensitive to this because, as a writer, inspiration feels important.

To be clear, it’s maybe once a month that I write from a truly inspired place. Usually it’s more of a discipline, a walk of faith from one word to the next, trusting that because God made me a writer, he will turn my tired words into something meaningful eventually.

But when it comes to my life in general, I know hustle has taken over when I don’t feel inspired in anything. Whether I’m in my kitchen, deciding what to wear, planning out my calendar, or having a conversation with John, if I feel unable to see the lovely, if I notice that I am only able to see the downside of everything, this is when I know hustle has too loud of a voice.

3. I can’t make a decision.

From inability to choose my meal at a restaurant to prioritizing goals and vision for my work, when hustle takes over I feel unable to make a decision.

Sometimes this feels like I’m drowning in a sea of options, as if there are so many directions I can go and I don’t know which to pick. Other times it feels like the opposite, like all my options have dried up completely and any hope for moving forward is gone.

Maybe you can relate to this distracted, grey, indecisive mindset. Maybe you are feeling it too: the rush to produce, the pull to compete, the thoughts flying fast and furious, the mad sprint toward the finish line.

I’ve got a secret for us both: that kind of race doesn’t have a finish line.

Last week, when I noticed I was feeling all of these things – chronically distracted, inspriation-less, and indecisive – I realized I needed to evaluate some things.

I decided to ask myself one simple but important question.

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What events, circumstances, or activities are life-giving and which ones are life-draining?

It might seem unrelated, like why would I ask this question in particular rather than work on prioritizing my time or doing something to relax myself?

For me, it’s because when my soul is being held hostage by hustle, I can’t see clearly to prioritize or to relax. So for me, this practice is a way to re-calibrate my body, my soul, and my spirit with the ways God has made me and my family to function.

Some people do this on a daily basis with the spiritual practice of the Daily Examen. I’ve done this some as well, but this time I wanted to have a clearer picture of the roots of overwhelm in my life and how God might be inviting me to rip them up.

Here is what I did specifically:

I used my Bullet Journal and methodically sifted through our past year and looked at six main areas:

  • Travel – Both for work and with family
  • Work – What projects have I prioritized? Which ones make me want to die? Which ones make me want to sing with joy?
  • Leisure – What downtime activities did I engage in during the past 9 – 12 months?
  • Everyday schedule – How have I been spending my actual day-to-day time?
  • Kids – What have their schedules looked like? What activities have we done together that we’ve loved or not loved?
  • John + Me – When were we really connected and when did we feel disconnected?

I handled each event or activity and asked myself if it was life-giving or life-draining.

This is a slow process and I had to stay focused, which was hard. I found myself reading through notes I took on books I read or checking off old to-do list tasks. They key here is big picture so try to keep that in mind.

I wrote them down with a  pen on paper so I could see them all at once.

This part is important for me. Physically writing down each event, activity, or circumstance with a brief description of why it was life-giving or life-draining was so informative.

I looked for patterns.

This is about as far as I’ve gotten in the process. But next I will:

Prayerfully consider how to incorporate more life-giving and less life-draining in the months to come.

To be clear, there are many life-draining tasks and activities I simply don’t have the luxury of giving up. But this practices has helped me realize there are many I can. These are the ones I want to pay attention to.

I’m still evaluating my lists as I just started last week and I’m not sure it can be done well in a couple of days unless you are on a retreat for this purpose. But so far here are a couple of conclusions.

  • I often avoid things that are life-giving to me because initially, I fear they will be draining. For example, having people over. The idea of it sometimes overwhelms me. But the reality is it’s life-giving.
  • Some projects are both life-giving and life-draining. This year I finished writing a book – the writing of it was life-giving. The editing  was life-draining. But you can’t have one without the other.
  • I check email too much.
  • John and I don’t get away enough.
  • I want to play the piano more often.
  • I want to read more books.

As I said, this is somewhat of a slow process, but I think it’s an important one. In a way, it’s the contemplative older sister to our monthly What We Learned link up. Speaking of that, here are a few other resources for you if you recognize yourself in this post and want to learn more:

  • What I Learned In August – Here you can read 10 things I’ve learned this month (silly and serious) and add your own post (the link up closes this Friday)
  • How I Keep Track of What I’m Learning – If you like the idea of this reflection practice but don’t have a regular routine of recording your monthly activities, this post on how I use my Bullet Journal. might help.
  • Free Video Series – If you haven’t signed up to get these videos yet, I want to invite you to do so. They are completely free and will give you practical ways to take a soul breath even in the midst of your busy life.
  • Simply Tuesday – The ultimate companion for a hurried soul who has grown tired of do more and dream big, offering perspective for your home, work, family, soul, and the plans you make for your future.

Hustle does not have to be normal. I hope you’ll join me on this journey of reflection and listening to your own life so that we might face the world with less fear and more love.

Space for Your Soul + Books for Your Shelf (A Giveaway!)

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If you’ve been on earth for five minutes, you have heard the mantras we like to say: be yourself, take care of yourself, protect yourself, love yourself, defend yourself, and express yourself.

But, in the words of John Ortberg in his book Soul Keeping:

“What if your self is a train wreck? What do you do then? The more obsessed we are with our selves, the more we neglect our souls.”

For many years I’ve considered the soul to be that part of you that houses your mind (the thoughts you think), your emotions (the things you feel), and your will (the choices you make). In short, I’ve heard it said that our souls are a combination of our thinker, our feeler, and our chooser.

Add them together and what have you got? Your soul!

I still think that for the most part, but I’m not sure it’s so easily outlined anymore. We worship an incomprehensible God, both knowable and mysterious.

As people who are made in his image, we are perhaps more incomprehensible than we are outline-able. So I want to respect the mystery that is humanity while, at the same time, not make our souls more mysterious than they need to be.

Soul whiplash is real, though, isn’t it? I can define that one pretty well. It happens to the most faithful and spiritually mature among us. I’ve been reflecting on why I think it happens to me and maybe you, too.

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When I picture the shape of our soul, I imagine not a line straight up and down but a circle curved in on itself. Like a donut, our soul needs a fixed point around which to revolve. What we put in that center is our choice, to be sure. But the results will show up in how we live, how we relate, and how we see the world.

If I place the circumstances of my life in the center? That’s what my soul will revolve around, as evidenced by the shame and anxiety I feel when I’m left out and overlooked or the elation I feel when I’m chosen and praised.

Good circumstances lead to good feelings and experience.

Bad circumstances lead to bad feelings and experience.

Do you ever get tired of this cycle? I sure do.

I, a mature grown person, actually told John once how I wish I could take a pill that would make me not so moveable.

A faith pill. Or an apple maybe? Eat this, then you will be like God.

Sometimes the lie makes simple solutions sound like such a relief, doesn’t it? But here’s the truth:

“If your soul is healthy, no external circumstance can destroy your life. If your soul is unhealthy, no external circumstance can redeem your life.” – John Ortberg, Soul Keeping

I write about the soul because I believe deep in my bones that invisible things are real.

I also believe that because the soul invisible, it is often forgotten beneath the demands of everyday life. It’s easy for me to get tangled up in a fast-paced world, distracted by hustle, driven to produce, hungry to ship.

But that’s a language the soul doesn’t speak.

Creating space for my soul to breathe is about respecting the daily pauses I need to be fully myself so that I can be present with God and faithful in my home, my work, and my community.

I write here to help you create that space, too.

If you feel like having margin is too much like being lazy, then maybe this will help you to know: It takes more work to create margin than it does to stay busy.

Busy is the default.

Margin takes intention.

Ask me how I know.

After the release of Simply Tuesday last week, my time has looked like this:

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And while it has been so fun for both me and for my family, my soul has been asking for a little more of this:

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I set yesterday aside as a day to regroup: to think, to walk, to reflect and to pray. But it didn’t come easy. I still had to make lunches, still had to drive the girls to and from school, still had to answer a few timely emails.

But in between, I chose to honor the longing for stillness and quiet and managed to carve out some time in the middle of the day.

I haven’t walked away from that time with answers or clear vision necessarily.

But there is still value in creating space for the soul even if you have nothing to show for it.

To spend time in the presence of God without an agenda does not come naturally for most of us. But how desperately we need it.

Here are a few things I hope will help you create space for your soul to breathe this week:

Free Video Series

If you haven’t signed up for this yet, I hope you will. You can watch the first video here and then sign up to receive the next four in your inbox, where I share practical ways to take a soul breath even in the midst of your busy life.

Free Conversation Guide

You have about 24 hours left to download the Simply Tuesday Conversation Guide when you purchase a book. I’ve written this for anyone who wants to read the book with a group, including everything you’ll need to have a conversation that matters. All you have to do is visit this page, fill out your purchase information, and you’ll be able to download the guide for free through tomorrow.

Sharing Simply Tuesday

And this one won’t help your soul breathe but it might be fun – I’m giving away a bundle for you and one of your Tuesday people! Here’s what you get and how to win:

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  •  $100 Barnes and Noble gift card (one for you + one for your friend)
  • personalized signed copy of Simply Tuesday (one for you + one for your friend)
  • a Tuesday tee (one for you + one for your friend)
  • a calendar pack (one for, you guessed it, you and your friend)

How to enter:

  • Take a photo of your copy of Simply Tuesday and share it either on Instagram, Twitter, Facebook, or all three using #SharingSimplyTuesday, bearing in mind if your accounts are set to private, we won’t be able to see it.
  • Tag me (I’m @emilypfreeman everywhere) either in your photo or the comments as well as the Tuesday friend you’ll share the bundle with. We’re looking for fun and creative and will pick a winner accordingly. (US entries only – so sorry my international friends – but you don’t have a B&N, do you?)

I’m extending the giveaway through the weekend and will announce the winner on Monday August 31.

Have fun! And here’s to a day filled with more heart and less hustle.

Let’s Keep Tuesday Simple: More Heart, Less Hurry

Last weekend, I happened to see something that almost always slips by me unnoticed.

I was leaving my mother-in-law’s house after spending the evening with her, my two sisters-in-law, and two long-time friends. We had a lovely girls night complete with fruit, goat cheese, chocolate, and a movie John would never watch with me. It was perfect.

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As I got in my car and glanced down at my dashboard, I noticed the speedometer was at the 80,000 mile mark.

In fact, it read 80,001.

I guess it was a big milestone in the life of a car, another 10K miles under the hood.

But these literal milestones on my car usually pass by unnoticed. I don’t plan for them or wait for them. They don’t seem to be the kind of thing to celebrate.

When I thought back over the last 24 hours, I realized we had spend most of our time within the two square miles around our house. Most of the places I drive are regular, familiar destinations close to home.

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Even though each of these small-moments over time have added up to 80,001 miles on my car, we don’t always have such an obvious way to mark the milestones when it comes to our lives.

I’m learning the importance of noticing the moments of my real life by saying no to hustle and yes to heart.

Tuesday has been my greatest teacher.

Because if the light of a Tuesday morning candle isn’t bright enough to light the room, a spotlight won’t be either.

If the home where we live on Tuesday doesn’t satisfy, we’ll find ourselves always searching but never quite finding.

If the work we do on Tuesday doesn’t feel important, we’ll find ourselves slaves to comparison, forgetting compassion.

If the people we live our lives with now aren’t sacred companions for us, we’ll find ourselves competing with everyone and connecting with no one.

If our souls long for more and bigger and refuse the Tuesday way, how will we ever fully share in the life of Christ who became less and arrived small?

My newest book, Simply Tuesday, officially releases in the US today.

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The last time I released a book, I had a full travel schedule around the time it came out. For some authors that works beautifully – but for me it led to a frantic feeling of rush and an inability to focus and be fully present.

This time I decided to stay close to home during book launch week which seems fitting for a book about smallness.

These days I’m careful not to color the word “small” in negative shades, as if it were something to run from or escape. I want to start small because I’m human and dependent, not in hopes that my small will grow into something bigger.

Jesus will give me the grace to stay there even when it hurts and even when it’s hard.

Small things don’t always turn into big things. But all things begin small, especially in the Kingdom of God.

Small things don't always turn into big things, but all things begin small. Especially in the kingdom of God.

Acorns become oak trees.

Embryos become President.

Life starts with a breath.

Love starts with hello.

Tuesday reminds me to accept the beauty of smallness, hiddenness, and the secret work of Christ in the deepest part of who I am.

So let’s take back quiet conversation with friends, whispered prayer over sick babies, belly laughter around the dinner table.

Let’s take back the honor of small donations, small care packages, and small movements toward fellow image-bearers because love isn’t measured in inches, grand gestures, or dollar amounts.

Let’s take back moments that are lovely even if they are imperfect, words that are powerful even if only one person hears them, company that is meaningful even when we don’t say any words at all.

Let’s take back our Tuesdays, the smallest day of the week. Because this is where we live and where our people live. Let’s release our obsession with building a life and trust in the life Christ is building within us, one small moment at a time.


I’m so excited this book is finally available (at least here in the US!)

Would you like help in taking back your own Tuesdays? Here are a few simple ways:

Pick up your copy of Simply Tuesday wherever books are sold in the US:  AmazonBarnes and NobleCBDDaySpring, or anywhere else you can find it.

Sign up here today for a free, four-video series we made for you where I will share practical ways to help you create space for your soul to breathe, even in the midst of your busy life.

Join us every Tuesday on Instagram and share a simple moment from your regular life. Hashtag it using #itssimplytuesday so we can see your moment and celebrate our smallness together.

Happy Tuesday, friends.

What Everybody Ought to Know About Stress

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Traditionally I haven’t paid a lot of attention to the signals my body sends me. That’s beginning to change.

Last spring right before a big speaking event, my jaw started to hurt, causing headaches and weird popping sounds when I chewed or opened too wide.

At the beginning of this summer I had a lot of deadlines and decisions pile up into one week. I thought I was cool with it all, but as I drifted off to sleep one night, my heartbeat woke me up because it was beating so hard I thought surely John could hear it too.

Then last week, while the kids were at Grandy Camp with my parents, I hurt my back by doing a super risky move – getting up from my sofa. One minute it was fine, but as soon as I moved to stand up, I felt a weird pain in my left side lower back.

I’ve already bored myself telling you the details.

(The other day after explaining my injury to John for the tenth time and having him not once roll his eyes or try to slip out of the room in disguise, I realized that the proof of true love is if someone will 1. Listen as you describe that dream you had last night and 2. Allow you to explain your minor injuries to them again.)

(Seriously though, when someone begins a sentence with “I have to tell you about this dream I had last night!” my eyes roll into the back of my head and my whole body goes limp with boredom and apathy. I digress.)

I consider myself to be fairly limber and medium-ly active. I go to a yoga class several times a week, walk/jog in the neighborhood when it’s not too hot and you know, go up and down our stairs tens of times during the day. I even went to my first kickboxing class a couple of weeks ago.

Still, the sofa betrayed me and caused several days of discomfort. It was’t debilitating, just annoying. So at my next yoga class I pay extra attention to that spot on my back, careful not to make it worse.

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As we begin to stretch at the beginning, our instructor tells us to pay attention to how the rest of our body reacts as we hold a pose, especially if it is a challenging one.

Her words make instant sense to me. We tend to compensate when under pressure, the body responding in fear because it thinks it’s in danger. We hold a low lunge and I know I’m going to die because that’s what happens when you hold a low lunge. As she reminds us again to notice how the rest of our bodies react, I realize I’m clenching my jaw and feel my shoulders creeping up to my ears.

She invites us to offer breath to those tense places and I instantly sense the smallest shift in the pose – a lifting of expectation and simultaneously, a feeling of ease. She explains how deep breathing relaxes the central nervous system and sends the body a message, You’re going to be okay.


I don’t always remember to connect my life circumstance with my bodily reactions. But the Lord created us as one complete person, not fragmented out. There is no impenetrable wall between our body, soul, and spirit. All of these different, sacred parts of us form the whole – In him all things hold together.

The strange thing is that I actually feel fairly relaxed these days. On the outside, I’m not freaking out or overly concerned with outcomes. But my body is telling me that anxiety is flowing just below the surface, like fast-moving water beneath a smooth sheet of ice.

As someone who tends to think and overthink and just when I’m finished thinking I think some more, I’m learning to pay attention to my body and, surprsingly even those ridiculous dreams.

My mind is important, but it isn’t always the most trustworthy narrator of the truth.

Sometimes the feeling I get in my dreams is more accurate than the story I’m trying to convince myself is true while I’m awake. And before I dismiss it as ridiculous, perhaps I could take a little time to listen.

Are you dreaming of your teeth falling out, forgetting math homework, needing to be somewhere but you can’t find directions? Have you missed the bus in your dreams, forgotten to put on pants, or can’t remember your locker combination?

Maybe now is a good time to consider what your body has to teach you and listen for the voice of God beneath the surface of those crazy dreams.

Maybe you are feeling the stretch of a difficult circumstance and your instinct is to tighten up, manage outcomes, and try to maintain control.

Maybe you’re mind is telling you everything is fine, fine, fine, but your body and your dreams are weaving a different tale.

Is your body trying to tell you something? Are your dreams whispering small truths about the state of your soul?

I hear the invitation to send deep breath to those tight, fearful places, both the ones in my body and the ones in my soul.

It’s possible to feel the tension without compromising my intention – love, trust, and gratitude. But it requires acknowledging the pain, becoming aware of God’s presence with me and within me, and releasing outcomes into his capable hands.

If you are holding tension in your body and soul these days, I can relate. I’ve prepared a free four-day video series just for you, practical steps to help create a little space for your soul to breathe based on my new book, Simply Tuesday: Small-Moment Living in a Fast-Moving World. Watch the first video right here and sign up to receive the rest in your inbox.


When Your Soul Feels Held Hostage by Hustle

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If it ever feels like the fast-moving world is not only rushing around you but also within you, I have something I hope might help. For the last few months we’ve been working hard behind the scenes to make a short video series to help you create space for your soul to breathe.

Today it’s live and ready for you at SimplyTuesday.com. See you there!